Dec. 13th, 2004

C-H-E-M-O spells Relief

So my mom had her first round of chemo just this past Thursday.
Luckily, my friend who happens to be the nurse who administered the drugs to my mom, told me that the drugs available now for my mom's cancer have less intense side effects than they used to. So my mom didn't experience any more vomiting then usual and she has felt relief already as the treatment has shrunk the mass on her pancreas and liver down a bit and she is not feeling the pain as it pushed against her other organs. Unfortunately though, she is very tired and weak.She goes in again this Thursday for her next round and I am a bit worried that maybe she won't be feeling so hot after this treatment. Her next one after that is Dec.23rd.

I asked her if she might feel up to going to our christmas eve service at church, and she says without a doubt she wants to go, but she doesn't know if she will be able to. Somehow the thought of going to church in her pj's and holding a 'sick-bucket' in her lap doesn't appeal too much to her.

Her old friends from high school got the news of her sickness and dropped by the house to visit. She hasn't seen a couple of them in years. I have always thought that situations like this that reunite people are so sad. It takes this much. One of the ladies had emailed my mom a picture of my biological father whom I have never met before - she forgot she had it and thought I would like to see it. I had one picture that I kept with me as a little girl... I must have been so afraid of losing it I hid it so well I can no longer find it. Figures.
Anyways, it was weird to see myself in this man I don't not know. I guess I have to give my mom the 20 questions about him before its too late to ask her.